Gaining and Loosing Weight Mentally

When I got pregnant with Tanner it was a shock to my husband and me. We were expecting to have to use fertility again, so Tanner came as a welcome surprise. I was participating in the last month of our towns Biggest Loser Competition (and doing really well!!) when I had gotten pregnant. I found out after the competition was over that I was expecting. For any of you who have ever been pregnant, know someone who has been pregnant or know anything about growing babies at all, know that you gain weight and are supposed to gain weight throughout your pregnancy. It was a really hard transition for me to go from weight loss mode to weight gain mode. I had worked so hard to lose that weight and it didn’t seem right to just start letting myself purposely gain it back, and then some. That was a very hard hurdle to get over and so I didn’t end up gaining weight until about 6 months into the pregnancy.

After Tanner came I chose to nurse him and you can’t just jump right into weight loss mode again. In order to keep your milk coming in you need to make sure you are eating more, I think around 300, calories. (There are some who lose weight easily while breastfeeding, unfortunately I was not blessed with that gift. I think it was my birth control though.) It was a really hard transition again for me to go from “You Must Gain Weight!!!” to “You Must Lose Weight!!”

After about 6 good months of needing to gain weight and eating almost whatever, whenever it was hard to then change my mentality back. It has come down to, besides my health, wanting to look decent in the sizes that I used to wear and not look like I’m still pregnant, a year later. It is mostly for vain reasons, yes, but I figure whatever will get me motivated to begin with I’ll take it!!

When we decide to have another child it will be hard again to “gain weight” but hopefully with a different lifestyle at the beginning of the pregnancy (and throughout) it will be easier to lose it. I wish any of you luck that have also struggled or are struggling with these feelings, I completely understand you!

Well...

I have kind of fallen of the band wagon. I have lost my motivation. I haven't officially "worked out" in weeks. I was having the electric shock in my back/shoulder blade pretty bad. I thought that by going to the chiropractor it would make everything better and be my magic feel better switch. Well, I was wrong. Although it has been somewhat better it's not gone by any means. It makes me not want to do the Shred very much. That and the lack of floor space and time during the day where I have energy. Excuses Excuses Excuses!! Yes, and I could probably think of some more if you gave me a minute.

Those are all the things that make me lack my motivation. I keep saying, "one of these days..." well those days keep on passing and nothing has been done so... One of these days I will get back into it and start working out again!

I need to find my motivation, maybe start going back to Zumba just to get me excited about working out again. I need to do something because what I'm doing (or lack of) is not working for me. Wish me luck I'm going to need it to!!!